Frustrations.... :(

I am still wondering if some people just want you miserable or they don't realize how much misery they are causing you. They need your services and yet they don't notice how valuable you are. This job is very important for me but at times i feel like giving up and and go home, but when i remember that there is no other place i can find such a job, i just stay put till a miracle happens. Traveling everyday without expecting any pay, waking up early to go to work and yet i fear i might be told to go home and never come back, working extra hours and not expecting anything in return.... all these just hurts a lot. I just pray to God that all works out well for me

~Word is...~

This life really is wierd... things happen and you never undastand why they happen at that particular time. All i know is that God has his reasons and he always has his eyes on us.
I know it hard to understand why we have to get hurt at times. Its even more difficult to understand why people who we love and care about most are the ones who end up hurting us the most. After getting hurt we tend to stay away from relationships as such for a while but we end up falling in the same trap again and get hurt again... and the cycle continues, untill we find our prince/princess meaning we r done kissing frogs. This can take forever for some and some are quite lucky its takes a very short time.
Its also hard to undestand why some things happen at certain times of your life and not others... like loosing a parent, a relative or a friend. these are the hardest of times in life. You ask so many questions to God, get so frustrated, feel so alone, wish that the world could crush you. All I can say, it has happend to every one of us, and God had his reasons as always... so we have no option but to accept what happened and move on with life.

~~Thats whats up~~

just pseaking my mind as always.... peace people.

Hard work pays

Before i left skul, i had never worked any where... i had so much expectation in the experience of working. Since i started, three weeks ago, i have learnt alot in the two places i have worked. I had my firs experience teaching which was really nice to share knowledge. It feels really good and satisfactory to know that someone has understood what you have taught them, while on the other hand its dissapointing when you teach and someone doesn't pay attention. I know know how hard it is dealing with students, coz you don't know what they are thinking, they are so new to what you are teaching them so even if you lie they will not know. :-)
My current job is exciting too, i am the youngest in the office and am lucky am not treated like a child. My workmates are really nice. They have taught me so many thing thet i didnt know both in life and also about work. I just thank God for them.It is so exciting to work here. i hope i get a permanent job here... i have so much to learn.

Life after school

simple, it sucks. its very boring coz i am very idle. i sleep late wake up late....looking foward to nothing

first day at work!!!

Its amazing how things work out. I have been at home praying and hopping for two months that i will get an attachment. When all hope was gone and all my friends had stared theirs, God knew when was the right time for me to start. Gladys is an angel sent form God i am so thankful for this opportunity. hope this works out well and i get a job here.

School life and finally Exams..!!!

since i began doing this exams, i know they are my final ones in Under graduate, but they suck. they are not hard as per say, but  they really are boring. the fact that i am almost done with school makes it even worse. i feel like i don't want to study anymore or this is all i have to do. i just hope the results will be as good as the papers were. Its was hard to imagine that i'd ever finish school. when i began as a fresha it was all fresh.... since then i have made many mistakes and learnt from them, made good choices and now am so happy about them, met many people, many who have influenced my life, some who wanted to ruin me....

Grandpa

Just thinking about u, puts tears in my eyes. i am truly gonna miss you.You were a great man and any on you interacted with gained something or two from you. One thing i know, you were the cleanest Guka i ever met. you always told us stories about your youthful years, they seemed hard but now i understand, because all you went through, your life was one very well lived. Yesterday i found out so many things that you have done in your life and i am very proud to bare this Great name 'WANDU'....jina ya nguvu. thank God i had you in my life. you were a blessing to all of us even in your old life. you always told us to plan ahead.... and that is what we live by and it really works.